Quito,Ecuador--view at my thinking/prayer spot
This week I have had to stop and think where I am more than once. I have awakened in the night unsure which way I should go to the bathroom, and had to stop and think if someone was waiting for me at Corfu, or the oms guest house or....I have thrown tp in trash (it took me the better part of my ten days to get in that groove again in Ecuador, and was just getting there when we got on a plane and returned to California), I have looked for my water bottle to brush my teeth at night, only to realize I CAN use tap water here for that. I have found myself thinking of something I wanted to tell sandi, cam, christy, Marlo, or Beth, only to realize that was last week's opportunity and community, this week that means email or Skype! And yes, last week these same things were happening in reverse; needing to share some tidbit with one of the kids but the three hour time difference, etc. making that much more complicated than a quick phone call or text. I will settle in, it just takes time, and I have just had moments this week where the vital necessity of savoring each day and place while you are there has struck me with fresh urgency. There is a time for everything as Solomon says in ecc. 3--God has appointed that time, best not to miss those precious divine appointments due to having my head in last week or in next week! But also that includes giving myself the grace of time to adjust and reaclimate and rest.
I have found myself asking God to grant me the capacity to be all here, wherever here is and for however long or short it is. This is going to be life for the next little while so I don't want to waste it being disoriented and out of it, I just want to learn how to lean in to Jesus more, and accept my limits yet live beyond them in as much as that looks like having the spirit of the living God work through me doing whatI never could on my own, or in my own strength. So wisdom and discernment to know the difference between depending on Holy Spirit and when a limit in personality or physical strength or emotional strength is God given and meant to be attended to. These are some of the things that I have been praying and puzzling over this week. Teach me to glorify you with all I am and am not in this season of being between worlds in a newer and more intense way. Amen.
No comments:
Post a Comment